I wish I could stop this, but I have days when I just worry about the old horses. I can’t help myself. I just worry. I watch their every move and worry. I am feeling panicky and very anxious, especially today.
This morning they were all just hanging around, not doing much, so I opened the gate to another field to see if they wanted a change of scene. I was worried they were not eating grass and were probably colicking in front of me.
So now the horses are nearer the house and I can watch them better.
This afternoon, after the dogs’/cat’s tea, I went down to the stream with my camera and had a sit.
Kolka came up and we had a chat about things.
She is a good listener.
Iacs is not the best listener. He does try, but he gets bored easily.
Haakon just wants to play “elephant nose” – he sort of plays with your hand with his nose – and hates any form of affection. He’s always been like that.
I told Kolka that I was worried about everyone and she just stood next to me.
But it was reassuring to see them all drink.
And then they walked off to eat, which cheered me up too.
I need to get some perspective.
